I haven't been active lately.  I always say i want to change that and want to be more active but it never seems to happen,and  i want to kick my self.  I have deviant art open every time i go on the internet but from my watchers point of view i must seem pretty dead.  i play mind games with myself when it comes to social websites and make myself anxious .this is  a very bad habit of mine that makes me fear websites i originally felt were fun.   anyway, i felt the need to apologize to everyone for the way i act before i posted anything.        
Thanks for letting me put that out there, you may now continue on your merry way~